Sunday, December 28, 2008

A little look into Christmas with the Newsome's...





Here are some pictures of my family from Christmas Eve, day and the days that have followed. I am a little late on posting all these, I kept starting posts and not finishing them. Sorry! There will be a lot in the next few days! We have had a blast being together:)

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I am home for the holidays:)

Yesterday I was listening to that song, "I'll be home for Christmas" and it says, "if only in my dreams.." and at this point I was sitting in the Chicago Midway Airport...and my flight had already been delayed & I thought to myself, "I will NOT be happy if this is only in my dreams..." Good thing I made it hope safely by 8pm EST and was greated by my lovely family. Then we went to my favorite pizza place, Mellow Mushroom:)

Today I got to sleep in and then enjoy a morning with my sister, lunch at the oh so yummy Char-grill and now I am relaxing until I leave to go see some of my girlfriends! I will post more about that later.

I miss my CCH kids, and I keep sharing stories about them, but I am glad to be with my family and friends that I am so blessed to have:)

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Rain stick Reflections

The other day we had our office Christmas get together. Our VP asked us to sit in a circle and close our eyes. She had this rain stick that she had just got as a present and so she started to let the rain stick go back and forth. Then she started to ask us to reflect on certain questions (and I am paraphrasing what she asked). She asked...

What happened in 2008 that you are glad is over?

What brought you joy in 2008?

What are you going to leave behind from 2008?

What are you looking forward to in 2009?

What do you want 2009 to be filled with?

This really was a wonderful thing for me to do, I felt like I had not really reflected on this past year. Let me tell you, A LOT happened in 2008...for starters I student taught, graduated from college, became a missionary, spent 3 weeks in NYC and met some of my best friends and partners in ministry, I moved to Urbana, Illinois, and I started my 1st real job:) Talk about CHANGE. This has been a year of intense Change...I think I should have a theme song for my life...instead of Seasons of Love, it should be Season of Change (of course there is love in the midst of all the change as well). This all got me thinking a lot.

I am going to compare my life over the past year to the season of Advent...and maybe I am just over consumed with talk of Advent after writing an advent devotional and teaching the kids about it, but I think its relevant and I love metaphors. So I feel like 2008 was a time of waiting for me. It took a lot out of me, I had to wait actively, not passively. I had to struggle to not let the busyness consume me. I had to keep my focus on the coming of Christ into my life. Advent is meant to be a time of preparation for the coming of Christ. I feel like for the 1st half of 2008 I spent time preparing myself for what God had in store for me. Most of the time I did not know what I was preparing for, but I knew there was something great out there for me to do.

This is where I can kind of relate to Mary, yes I can relate to the Mother of Jesus. An angel comes to a teenage girl, in fact probably a middle schooler, (like my dad says, Jesus' Mama was a middle schooler). The Angel tells her she is going to give birth to the Messiah. Mary, a middle schooler, the most unlikely person, is being called to be the mother of Jesus our Messiah our Savior. I felt like Mary this year because I felt God call me to something greater than myself, I felt completely unqualified and unequipped to be a missionary, yet he still called me. He had something in store for me that I could not even imagine back in the early days of 2008. God sent me on a journey similar to Joseph and Mary's journey to Bethlehem. The journey was hard at times, I had to stop and rest a lot, but I knew I must continue on the journey. The journey led to being a missionary at Cunningham Children's home, in of all places, Urbana, Illinois. God has a sense of humor...a manger for Jesus, and a home for kids with severe behavior and emotional issues for me. (if you don't find the humor in this...read below)

While I was student teaching, my one really hard experience was one day when one of our kids tried to punch another kid over a game of jeopardy and then proceed to threaten me, corner me against the wall, and then try to punch my teacher...it was the day I left for my interview in NYC for the US-2 Missionary position...ironic yes...God's plan, no doubt!

But my journey did lead to Urbana to CCH, and I am not going to equate it with the birth of Jesus, because you just can't compare to that. But I will say that my bright star landed over CCH. This was the best place for me to be, God has equipped me daily to get through it all, even the days that get so hard, he shows me joy through a kids action and I make it through.

My heart has broken for these kids. As I went around with Santa the other night from unit to unit, after working a ridiculous amount of hours of the last few weeks, the kids sat on Santa's lap and asked for Love, their parents back, to smile again...etc.. they admitted that had been bad but were trying to turn it around. This Santa was amazing, the kids talked to him like in some ways he was God. It was like seeing the kids sitting on God's lap telling them their struggles and just wanting to be loved. I teared up, and I thought back to earlier that day with the rain stick reflections & thought...2008 was definitely about change, but those changes led me here, and I can't wait to start 2009 working with these kids for another year.

In the midst of writing this reflection I was listening to this song by Melissa Ethridge and I think it fits well, it's called Light a Light...but I think it could be called "Season of Change" too. I love how it talks about heaven is on the inside and not just above...and how we should choose love. I have changed this year, and I have choose to love these kids with all I have in me. And yesterday we lit a candle for each kids at Cunningham, and a 3 wick candle for all the kids in the past, all the one in the present, and all the kids that will come to CCH in the future. So enjoy these lyrics.

'Tis the season of change
Seasons are the contrast
The key to life and how its done
It's time to let go of our past
And let go of whats to come

write down your excuses
and turn them into dust
plant the seeds of change
water it with trust

Light a light tonight
we light a light
Light a light tonight
we light a light

Now that this time is ending
and everyone is here

We light a light a light this year
'Tis the season of change

What do we have, what do we have not
what do we need that isn't here
this mindless numb consuming
is driven by a sudden fear

It's time we stop believing
that there will not be enough
I know they said it on the TV
so turn it off, break the chains
step outside and feel the love

we light a light tonight
we light a light
Now that this time is ending
everyone is here
we light a light a light
this year
'Tis the season of Change
of Change

We must change
Heaven is inside
it's all around not just above
choose only love
Heaven is inside
it's all around not just above
choose only love
choose only love
choose only love

Monday, December 8, 2008

Camille the Camel




I am really too tired and sick to write much with this post, but I wanted to post a few pictures from my Walk Through Bethlehem. These are pictures of our "camel" we got that we named Camille. The girls in the picture with me are Ann, Kristen and Caci who are in my Grad Bible Study. Everything went great and I am so glad the kids loved it. Now for me to get better...

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Pre- Walk Through Bethlehem





Today is a big day in the life of Cunningham...we will be putting on our 2nd Annual Walk Through Bethlehem. Now some of you might have participated in this sort of thing before, but others night not have. So basically it is a time to take a look at the town of Bethlehem and see where Jesus was born. We have a "somewhat" live nativity (no real animals sadly), you eat at the "Bethlehem Inn" , everyone dresses as people from that time period, we have a camel (its a costume), there are crafts, you have shekels to use as money...it's supposed to be really fun for kids. So anyways we are having around 30 volunteers show up at 4 to help pull this off...we have spent countless hours preparing crafts, snacks, food, getting volunteers, and setting up. Honestly since about my 3rd week here we have been preparing in some way for this. So I just pray it goes well and the kids love it:) Included are pictures of all the crafts...tonight or tomorrow I will post some pictures from the event (sadly not of the kids though).

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Thanksgiving pics




Here is a look into my Thanksgiving here in Illinois. It was my first Thanksgiving EVER without my lovely family. It was hard at first and I shed a few tears, but I made it through. Luckily I have an amazing "Illinois Family"...my boss, Gay and her husband, Dan, and their son Caleb have become my adopted family. I love them so much and they have been a great joy in my life the last 3 months. I went to thanksgiving with them at Dan's sister's house in Mason City, Illinois. There is really just cornfields and farm country throughout Illinois and this place exemplified that well. After our meal we watched Elf and then took a walk through the country, saw some silos, and some horses! Overall it was the best Thanksgiving could be with out being with you own family:)